beloved

i am david.

my name means beloved.  i thank my mother every time i realize that. i like to think that she named me that so i could always know that i'm beloved.  mother is our first guru. earth is our mother. earth is our first guru.

i sometimes call myself sarva. it's a sanskrit word that means "all" or "everything."  it seems kind of arrogant or egotistical to call yourself everything.  actually, it is the opposite.  because i am not separate from the multiverse, if i am to know mySelf, i must first know the entire multiverse, which thing is impossible.  but i must do my best.  for me, it is the multiversal imperative.  know thySelf... know the Self.

there is some mysterious continuity, though nothing ever stays the same for long or slows down for a split second to be defined, i remain an individuated entity.  though i was once microscopic and once more akin to an amphibian than a human.  then, i enter the bright, noisy, cold, hard world, helpless, unable to speak or walk or feed myself.  through all the learning and unlearning, through the infinite variety of changes inherent in human life, beneath all the social roles, through it all, i am me.  i am.  that Self is a student to the multiversal guru.

this is a new beginning... so to speak.